I don't know... was myself out there this morning? i hope not... i'm not like that fucking idiot... what can i do?
Probably i've lost my life... in a while... i hate me... there is no pleasure when you know that all in front of you is the darkness... what is it? what is this fear? i hate my brain... i'm not the same people...
Kill me please... no no... it would hurts only a bit...
i must suffer for what i've do...
Monday morning... I'm at work but i'm pausing a little just now...
Outside it's all grey, it's raining but not only outside.
It's raining inside of me...
I am terribly worried for my DA, she feels bad and i'm crying for her badness...
She is the most important person of my life, a true friend who undestand you just watching in your eyes.
All is meaningless if you know she is feeling bad, i'd like to hear her voice and try to mitigate her pain.